The first post!

Well this is my first post of my latest Internet adventure! Lately I've been wishing I had a way to convey my thoughts on certain topics and hear other's opinions on them...so what better way than a blog!? My posts will probably range anywhere from book, music, and movie reviews, biblical discussions, any notable experiences I have, or general thoughts on life. Hopefully soon I will be able to come up with a more creative name than "Cameron's Blog." But alas at this moment my creativity level is not very high! :)

So, here I go! Here's some thoughts on where God has me in life right now...four days away from my high school graduation.


When I was little I hated change. From big things changing to little things changing--I really hated change! For example, when I was about nine years old I became very distressed for several days all because my parents bought new furniture for our living room. My heart just broke when the old furniture was moved out and replaced with pretty, new furniture. But, my nine year old mind didn't see it as a small affair as people normally do. That furniture had been the only furnishings for my living room that I had ever known. I liked the new and thought it was very nice and very pretty but I wished that old, battered couch and chair could somehow stay. I wanted to keep both the new and pretty along with the loved and memorable. Removing the couch and chair felt like throwing away precious memories and the hopes for happiness in the future. Yes, I was and still am an overly sentimental kid!

At the age of twelve a big change came to my life. My dad got a new job and my family moved to Nashville, TN. When my parents told me the news I was devastated, as you can imagine since I practically grieved over an old couch only a few years earlier. Despite my parents' suggestions that I would make new friends and that I could look at it as an adventure, I didn't want anything to do with the idea of moving. Time after time I cried and became utterly mournful. We did move, however, in spite of my plans to find someone to live with and stay in my hometown of Cleveland, TN. What I didn't know that night when my parents first told me the news and I cried myself to sleep, was that the move from Cleveland to Nashville was one of the best things that has ever happened to me, because it was part of God's plan for my family. Now, I know that what was once a heart rendering affair is now a daily blessing.

Now today, I am seventeen and I still hate change. No, now I don't cry when something as small as a light bulb is replaced or freak out over such things, but change is still something that gives me trouble. In four days I will graduate from high school and my homeschool tutorial, LCA. In August I will move off to Lee University (in Cleveland, TN ironically enough) for college. It pains me to leave my church. It pains me to leave home. It somewhat saddens me to really move forward into adulthood (I'm totally mostly excited about that one though!) It hurts me to leave LCA. My heart grieves for being separated from my dear friends, the ones who are moving far away for college and even those who will still be in Nashville (although not as much since I know I will see them when I come home on the weekends : D). With this graduation process my heart is burdened over so many things. I'm such a sentimental person that coming to terms with change is a very difficult process.

I have been sad this whole school year yet I still haven't been able to come to terms with this great change of moving from high school to college and life on my own.
I need to look back and remember how the change of moving to Nashville completely changed my life for the better! Like with the furniture, I want both. I want to continue my beloved way of life at LCA and home and also start the new, exciting life at Lee and following the amazing plans God has for me. But I cannot have both unfortunately. I must look forward and trust that God will calm my fears, wipe away my tears, and take care of me.

Maybe someday change will be something that I am able to process and be OK with in little or no time (I doubt it!) but for now, the way God has wired me, it takes me months--a nice, long period of time for God to work in my life I suppose. :)
I know that God has incredible plans for my future and I am so excited about following them! Lee is where I know I'm supposed to be next fall. Whatever my future holds for me, it will be awesome, because my loving Father has mapped it all out for me!
For now, I will just rest safely in His arms while figuring out how to hold the past in my heart and move forward into the future that is now.